"Celebrating Growth"

I am a Christian woman I take pride in knowing my help comes from the lord. I would not be here today if it was not in God's will. I hope reading this will help you also understand that your healing, help, & promises come from the Lord. If you read my story, you know that I experienced a traumatic time in my younger years. It is a great thing to go and seek help and talk with someone. However, you want to make sure they address all your issues. Not just the experience that you have been through, but not everything else that was built because of the traumatic experience. My other things were being sexual at a young age, being angry, being bitter, short-tempered, mean, having low self-esteem, acceptance of horrible treatment, and smoking. You may say well dang that’s a lot. It is, but we build walls and new characters within ourselves. One to push down the experience that we went through and two to find a way of coping. So, we put these vices in place hoping we will never have to relive what we went through. But there was a point in my life where I was just sick of myself. The vices I used and the character I built I no longer was fond of. I want me. But I pushed myself so far down that I didn’t know who I was.

The first thing I did was take a step back. I had to remove myself for myself. Sound funny saying that but it’s the truth. I got on my knee and begged God to show me who I was. No, the answer didn’t just fall from the sky. God began to drop little nuggets by words people were saying & bringing dreams to me. Things I chose to forget. So, once you do this it will be a lot, you may cry, you may get angry again. But this time you cannot push it down. Face it.

I went back to God. “Ok lord, I know why now. How do I heal from this”

The first thing he had me do was write it all down. So, I did. Then I wrote my story, and I read my story every night to myself, which helped me heal. So now I'm here. Still a work in progress but loving the women I am becoming and truly happy I have found. Tae'Lour